Been Slackin'

I don't mean I've been slacking when it comes to blogging either, I mean with mostly everything else.
The only things I've done this Christmas break are read, watch movies, and spent almost the whole week with my best friend.
But I guess that's what vacations are for, right?
What sucks is that it's almost over. Oh my God. Only tomorrow and Sunday, and then the next day I am back at school, the last place in the world I want to be. Well, maybe not the last, but it's pretty far down the list. I don't want to face anything I have to do. God, I feel depressed just writing this.
I need to stop now.
I don't feel like writing this anymore.
Before I go, I just want to state my New Year's resolution. For the record, I never do this. Every year, my New Year's resolution is to not have a New Year's resolution.
Sometimes that makes me feel clever.
Other times it makes me feel uncommitted and lazy.
Sometimes I make a New Year's resolution and then when I break it, I pretend I never had one in the first place.
I am a horrible person.
But this year, for real, I have one. I'm going to lose 15 pounds, and keep it off.
It's going to happen.
Mark my words.
If it doesn't, someone can fucking smack me and call me all the names I deserve to be called.
Stupid.
Lazy.
Uncommitted.
Failure.

I will make it happen.

Completely off topic, but my sister is downstairs watching Girl, Interrupted. Apparently, she loves the movie now, even though she saw the second half first, on account of the fact that she fell asleep on my best friend's lap and missed the beginning. But now she's watching the whole thing, and making her boyfriend watch it too. I can hear bits and pieces from where I am, and I know what part she's at right now.
But for all the confidence I claim to have and for all the fear I provoke in this kid, my sister's boyfriend, I can't bring myself to go downstairs and watch it with them.