I'm depressed, again, but I'm not blaming it on myself this time. Maybe I'm feeling down because it's Sunday, especially because it's the Sunday before break ends. Or maybe I'm just trying to make excuses for feeling bad. It's not even like I did nothing today; I almost finished research for my insights final, and I did my biology homework. But I don't feel like I accomplished anything. I don't ever feel like I accomplish anything. I feel like I have all the tools to do something worthwhile or make a difference, whatever the hell that really means, but I don't know what I'm supposed to be building.
I don't even have anything to write.
I lied, I do have one thing. Does the fact that I need to get the fuck out of this town, out of this STATE, is that something? I just need to leave. I don't know for what purpose, but I can't stand this fucking place. My parents lecture me on how they want me to stay in the state for college, but they also lecture me on how I need to get out of the house. It's not my fault that my sister is...enigmatic, I guess. She has tons of friends, even if they're not the best people, and she loves to go out and...party. I don't. Am I supposed to apologize for that?
I feel like I should but I know I won't.
Oh look, the Oscars.
I'll go distract myself now. Waste some more time,
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You can come to Michigan.
I WIISSSHH.
One day! Oneee day, I will.
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