I Miss This Book

"If you’re male
and you’re Christian
and living in America,
your father is your model for God.
And if you never know your father,
if your father bails out
or dies
or is never at home,
what do you believe about God?"

"Me,
with my punched-out eyes
and dried blood,
in big black crusty stains on my pants,
I’m saying
HELLO
to everybody at work.
HELLO!
Look at me.
HELLO!
I am so ZEN.
This is BLOOD.
This is NOTHING.
Hello.
Everything is nothing,
and it’s so cool to be ENLIGHTENED.
Like me.
Sigh."